Looking out the window

They say birds of a feather flock together.
One tries to fly away and the other watches him closely from a wire, he says he wants to as well but he is a liar.He's never going to let go of  the wire.

I am staring out the window, listening to the pitter patter of the raindrops and the cry of the cicada, besieged by the sudden serenity that over comes nature in that lush moment.And I cant stop singing the above lines from Regina Spektor's song called 'Two birds'.This got me wondering about the similarities between the two birds and us humans.

One bird is not ready to leave the other.He says he wants to,he is not only fooling the other bird but also himself. Don't we humans to do the same?We cling on to so many unfathomable things.

People hold onto another person,or memories,good or bad,or different struggles of their life.They carve a special place in the niche of their hearts for these people.Yes you will say it is love, but one day when that person abruptly leaves them, their lives are shattered into a million pieces just like a mirror to bring in bad luck!
From my own personal experiences i say that people find it very hard to let go off a loved one.
Some how in this strangely working universe, this absence leaves a hollow space, an emptiness of sorts within each one of us.And its very difficult to fill in this hollow space.
Out of the fear of the unknown, people prefer to hold on to the familiar sufferings.I can rightly say that this will hinder one's personal growth, will make one shrivel up inside like an old leaf, and be unaware of the beautiful things happening around them.

I am writing this as a freshman, yes i am new to the whole 'College" experience but i can assure you, letting go of all my past struggles, challenges,bad memories and yes of course my mistakes which i had then deeply regretted, has really helped me open my eyes and broaden my mind a bit more than the usual(I am not gonna exaggerate).I am a person who finds it really tough to let go of anything, may it be some big struggle or some small snide remark by any person.

Is one afraid of repeating the same circumstances of the past and hence not moving forward?If it is so, then how would one adapt to change of any kind.While learning biology in junior college my teacher would keep on quoting Darwin's basic principle;SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST.And this is as much applicable to real life as it is to the evolutionary studies!

If you aren't ready to let go, you would not survive in this dog eat dog world.You would not open up to any new experiences or any other person what or who could really create a much more severe impact in your life.Basically you are not ready to give yourself a chance.In doing so you are not only adding misery to your own life but also directing it towards someone who doesn't need it.THINK!


Stephen King said, some birds are not meant to be caged, that's all. Their feathers are too bright, their songs too sweet and wild. So you let them go, or when you open the cage to feed them they somehow fly out past you. And the part of you that knows it was wrong to imprison them in the first place rejoices, but still, the place where you live is that much more drab and empty for their departure.

Some people believe holding on and hanging in there are signs of great strength. However, there are times when it takes much more strength to know when to let go and then do it. 

Why is it so difficult to just let go?Why do we keep wondering about 'what might have been'?For once just stop all this thinking and BREATHE!
Get yourself detached from all these cruel "rattraps" of the world.Stay aloof because you are not going to leave anything behind besides your thoughts and deeds. Your deeds should be selfless and that is what is gonna make them immortal and universal.

Now I'd love to go back to mesmerizing myself in the romantic scene outside my window and loosing myself in the novel I'm currently reading with a nice cup of coffee!

Strings tethered

Phew..what a time its been..these past few months.All those killer headaches and all the up downs around the city.

But something that is true for everyone is that we get out reflective thoughts especially during nature calls, or while travelling in a bus alone    staring out the window or when having trouble falling asleep!

Having realized how monotonous my life has currently become, i regret not having enough time to do my deep thinking and reflecting on how the world works.But oh well....that is my oxygen.I'm just obsessed with it. But no matter ..no matter...monotony can be a good thing too if you consider it under certain circumstances.

So this is what i like to picture....staring at the vast expanse of nothingness and getting lost avidly into my silent thoughts.

Recently I've been thinking about our different desires.And this time I'd like to talk about our DESIRE TO BE HEARD.






We all have problems. And right from childhood we are taught that we ourselves are carriers of our own grieves. And I think this is where we loose out.If only we would give others a chance to express themselves I think we could breathe much more easily than what we would.Listening to other people's grievances when you are sad or hurt makes you feel that you're not the only one who is grieving on the inside..though it may sound selfish but we got to admit;we all feel a little, if not much,relieved realising that our problems are not as big as the others.
But for some reason no body dares to open up.Nobody gives a damn about anything.They just go on...as if nothing happened, as if nothing matters to them.
Is it that these people are afraid or not brave enough to let others hear them out?Do they live in fear that their reputation or self highness will hit the low octave just in case they do show that they have a weak spot somewhere in there?
I just wish all the people would stop lying about everything.Each and everything that they speak is a big fat lie..so i'm saying through my experience living in a society where people just dont give a damn about others.Being selfish is accepted given the cut throat circumstances that we live in....but that doesnt mean we arent supposed to be stopping once in a while and hear out and lend a helping hand to those who need it.

Yes..we all crave to be heard.Somewhere inside us we just want to yell out loudly to the cruel world to drop everything that its doing and hear us out.Who values our opinions,our thoughts our quotes more?
We,ourselves 'course!! But nobody is even bothered to look up into your eyes and tell you that no matter what,I'm always there to hear you out..no one i tell you ..no one.

So we can wind up saying that maybe one day if you just hear out a beggar while strolling the streets, it would change his and perhaps your life too.
And then maybe,one day we could hear all the echoes of those lost voices!

String of light

Reading the Bible,I came across this in a gospel, not that you don't know.Jesus walked on water to reach to his disciples who were in a boat and on seeing this, they were scared.Then Jesus told Peter to come out and walk with him.So Peter did so.But then a strong wind started blowing and Peter was afraid and he began to sink down. At once, Jesus grabbed hold of him and said " How little faith you have!Why did you doubt?"

A little further he quoted to his disciples that even if you have faith as tiny as a mustard seed and you ask this mountain to move, it will move.(Its not for any reason they say, faith can move mountains)

This deep should not be mistaken to be taken literally.You've got to look at it in a broader aspect.I dont wanna start a controversy here, but in the Genesis its clearly written, now literally, that God created man in the image of himself .These lines say it all.In each and every one of us, there lies a spark. Its just residing somewhere, beneath all that stored and hidden guilt, anger etc. All that it need is a tiny ignition to go BOOM!!! Its just that we cripple ourselves and surrender to all our insecurities very soon( comme moi!! :p)
          ALL WE NEED IS FAITH.

Lemme ask this question to all the atheists out there. I know the Bible doesn't lie, I mean how can it.This was practically written. What do you think about the fact that when people went to Jesus and asked him to heal someone they loved and he just asked them to get up and go, your loved has been healed. What do you make of it?Its not miracle. C'mon!
Its faith that the people have, in him, in his words, in his deeds, in their deeds, in their selves, their loved ones, whatever!
Its that tiny 5 letter word.

Coming back to Genesis, God created man in the image of himself.Its not a difficult metaphor.Its the same thing that every religion on this planet preaches.All is one, but the ways are different.

Now, I'm not ranting over here.This what truly has happened to me.Its definitely not easy, no I haven't waled on water! but I've really experienced something inexplicable and I'd like to keep it as my personal treasure (sorry for being so, given that some people relle get all judgmental and stuff).Its not some hocus pocus kinda thing.
Its just a feeling, a strong feeling that resides in each of our hearts.

We are full of courage, again, its only the ignition that's required.It doesnt matter if it comes out early, or late or even some where in the middle, but it comes, at the proper time.Only we've got to keep our eyes and ears wide open.

This is through my personal experience, my dad's patients regard him as their god, their idol, their saviour.I mean this is beautiful, the way mankind can LOVE, have FAITH in something as critical as a doctor who is always under constant pressure as someone's life is literally in his hands!

I always yell this out loud, idol worship isn't having faith.Its just.........well just idol worship!You're really doing things for the sake of it.Dont you go to temples and pray, but lemme tell u even if i pray lying in my bed, I think I'll be more complacent or satisfied than those who go to temples etc.Why you ask?B'coz I pray from my heart.My heart speaks out and that too casually!It reminds of one of Rabindranath Tagore's sayin :
God asks for his temple of love to be built, and man brings stone. This goal of temple of love yet remain man's greatest unfulfilled task!

Mind you, praying is no offence.Its just like singing a song that you keep humming in your minds.You pray to whatever, not necessarily whomever you want. Trust me, it really helps.But just be truthful or else you'd be kidding yourself.
Re-quoting  Steve Jobs: People who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do!
What else, my answer to that is  faith!

Tribute to starry dreamers like me

Looking at my seniors from the corner of the corridors makes me envious of their lives. I see spark in them. If we are earth, they are sky. It gives me a different feeling to think what they all would be doing in a few months down the line.Now i know that I dont have a well versed relationship with them, but someday we too would be walking that path(hopefully).In a short time,to my real surprise, I did make some great friends, people whom I've added as precious gems to my little treasure chest!These friends helped me be brave through my tough times and I couldn't thank them enough for eternity.

It really amazes me to see these people so cool in the head or perhaps that's my perception of them because i myself have a hot head!!
You suddenly realize the different kinds of relationships you've made all along, with or without intention. We may be holding grudges against some of them but in the end they do hold an eminent part in our lives.Just having a walk down the street is made difficult by the circumstances that we are surrounded with, and at times it makes me think whether I should yell out to the whole wide world what we really wanna do!!


Run,run and run, sweat out the last drop in you, jump,jump and jump, till your fingers brush the skies!
Leap and bound till your hearts content and yell loud till your throats dry! And of course have a starry sleep!

Perhaps even God did not imagine the day Adam and Eve took a bite from that apple, that some day these same people would be speculating on finding "Higgs Boson".

Maybe fear drives us onto the right path, fear brings in us the courage to fight, fear is what maybe making us do what we really are doing.
A really great friend of mine told me when i asked him, isnt everything pre-destined?
His awesome reply: if it weren't, you wouldn't be doing what you are doing now!
So true......and there lies the beauty..in those simple words but those sky rocketing thoughts!
Yes the beauty does lie in not knowing a particular thing and being hands after on it..to perhaps know what treasure awaits our patient hearts!!
Every relationship comes bearing gifts with it and this relationship of Friendship is unique in its own way, alas I am still a learner,beginner,amateur and perhaps would like to stay so for a while.....

To all my seniors..........

The sparkling seas

Ever stared out at the vast blueness and let your mind go blank?I'm sure you must have, at least once, though it is an insensible question to ask!
How does it feel?To let all the beauties of nature surround and mesmerize you?That does help you to realize the serenity your mind can attain.And then this tiny little thought creeps into your mind and you realize your insignificance in this world.Its the same feeling u get when, after sweating the crap outta yourself you make it to the peak of a very dangerous mountain, and look down upon the massive panorama! Just close your eyes and take thy mind to the peak of Himalayas and let the white cottony thingy surround you!!! You may feel great right now, so imagine what it'd be if you were really there!

So, as i was walking down the street from school to the bus stop,I was thinking about our country's current status.Obviously the first thing that comes to our mind:Corruption!
But what i dont understand is how can these people be corrupt?Please get my point clear.When any damn person attains a position which is very reputed, he naturally develops a sense of responsibility! Its obvious, isn't it?I mean once your out there you realize what power you hold, and that there are people who look up to you and that u shud be in your right head to take any decision! So maybe these people or should i say oldies who run our country have run outta of their appropriate grey cells that trigger their 'sense of responsibility'......Yikes..sorry people!!!!

Phew..... thats all folks!!!

So weird

Have you ever given a thought to what may be happening in the mind of a patient in comma?Or maybe when you  look at a newborn who has just opened its eyes for the very first time in this sweetly cruel world?What maybe going on in those 'grey cells' when one drifts off into the dark abyss of the so-called dreams? We just seem to take it for granted....all these 'weird' aspects of our daily life.Isnt there an appropriate explanation  for all this?
Its really amazing to see various creatures crawling around in the open, and if u have the observer's eye...u ought to be fascinated on those beautiful,intricate,complex yet amazing designs they have on their bodies.I mean these creatures are so small; we humans take pleasure in thinking of ourselves to be the most dominant creature on this planet..but when u look at those tiny little bugs crawling  around..its really amazing...I mean GOD has made them more beautiful than us,truly breathtaking!

Where does yesterday go?From where does tomorrow come and why the hell does it come?Do things just come and go like this?Innit it weird? Well i think it is.....m gonna do something to find some solutions to these mysterious queries of how the universe works?

I used to be an Atheist...now i say used to for quite a confounding reason.Things have changed since the past few years that has opened my eyes.... well not completely though.I have been so confused, and acting so muddled and lost and taking things for granted.

Then one fine day...maybe the sun rose in the west that day...i realized that the people i called as my friends wouldnt be there for me always, i realized that the kind protection i was getting wouldnt be there anymore, the sweet fun,laugh and mischievous things that i would do would have to be let go off! When these boulders started crushing my big head i started praying.I am not ashamed to say this as u may think i was an atheist then, but yes i prayed....i prayed to whom i dunno...to what i dunno for what and why i dunno....but i just prayed! 

And boy was i surprised!!! Things worked out pretty fine.I was at ease with everything then, things seemed to be flowing smoothly!!! I was amazed at how this little thing called "FAITH" works. My best friend had recently gifted me 'The Holy Bible".I couldnt be more grateful to her than any other person...thats the best gift i ever got as of now!!!

If u didnt get the opportunity to read it, then i must say that its high time u run to a store and get a copy.I still havent finished it...m just reading the gospels...but they have quite a deep meaning!!! I wont go into details but here is nice extract from the Gospels of Luke ( I dont know the exact words, but the meaning remains the same):

A shepherd had a hundred sheep.One of them wandered off.So Jesus says that the shepherd would go looking for that one sheep leaving the rest 99 behind.Listen then if you have ears!

So i take leave now and let u ponder upon that little extract!!

  

Goofed up!!!!

Ho ho!!! I dunno what to come up with!
currently nothing much has happened except that i won a quiz with the great Raj Kunkolienkar!!( a really gr8 guy)
Yeah except that nothing much!!! Though m missing my mum for some reason very desperately which leaves me in tears when in bed....but those just soak when i sleep.Ironically i have grown more lazy n not preparing for my school exams!!!
Gosh m such a lazy bum!! He he!!!
but now i wanna do things my way...i dont care what happens...as long as m answerable to myself n self satisfied....i think things should work out fine!!!
Well....m starting to have wider perspective of life n everything in it.Things should be fine for now.....but then i have those teenage blues in between which makes me question everything that m doing n feel that everything is futile.....i lyk to call it my period of "mental transition"!!! He he...i dunno what that means
just for fun.. I miss tom and jerry! LOL